May 30th, 2008

sucks, penguin5

Harvey Korman, RIP

Harvey Korman, one of the finest comic actors of our time, has died at the age of 81 of complications from the rupture of an abdominal aortic aneurysm. The amazing thing, apparently, was that he survived the aneurysm for four months....

He was one of the funniest men alive, and he'll be sorely missed. Some of my fondest childhood memories are him and Tim Conway on The Carol Burnett Show.

Sigh.

*raises glass*
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a rare personal post

I have several problems. I'm not going to go into all of them here, save two: I have a chronic inability to admit that I have problems, and on those rare occasions when I do admit it, I refuse to do anything about it.

For smaller things, I've been able to manage with will power. For example, I've convinced myself to go to fighting class, even though I hate it. I managed to stop a two-decade-old fingernail-biting habit at the age of 28 (though it took infecting three fingers in the course of two weeks to get me to). I hate going to any kind of medical professional, because I keep thinking that if I ignore it, it will go away despite the millennia of evidence in the form of human history that pretty well puts the kibosh on that notion. In general, with the exception of the two examples I gave at the beginning of the paragraph, my history of avoidance has been a colossal failure. (Like the time my cholesterol went down after taking Crestor and I decided that I could keep it down through willpower. Anybody who's seen me eat is probably laughing hysterically at this point....)

I've taken two separate stabs at therapy, but it was really just lip-service. I wasn't really willing to go the whole nine yards with it, I was just doing it to say I was doing it.

That stops now. I need to work on fixing the things that are wrong with me, and I need to actually, y'know, do it, not just say I'm going to do it and then go about my life like I always do. That's, frankly, pathetic.

I have an appointment on Wednesday at 2pm with the psychiatrist whom I started seeing in November and then stopped by the time 2008 rolled around. I'm going to see if I can see him every week. I'm also going to post about it -- not in detail, but that it's happening -- here by way of keeping myself accountable.

I've disabled comments, because I don't need them. This isn't a discussion, it's an announcement.
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me

yet another personal post

I'm posting this from my parents' house, because I'm staying here for the weekend while I get my head together. terri_osborne and I need some space because I've proven myself untrustworthy and she is justifiably pissed off.

We are still getting married this month. We have a lot of work to do, and it's going to take a very long time, but it's worth the fight. I love her more than I can say, and I've treated her appallingly.

I'm sick and it's waaaaaaaaaaaaaay past time I started healing that wound (he says, mixing the metaphor a bit).

Thanks to everyone who e-mailed me. You're good people.

Edited to add: I didn't intend to have comments enabled on this post, but by the time I realized it, I'd gotten several comments, and was having trouble getting online with consistency on my parents' wireless network. While I truly appreciate the support, both here and in e-mail, I'm disabling comments for the time being.
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